apologia

half trees

I’ve had this feeling lately that I owe the blog. I admit I haven’t given it much. I took a few weeks off, and then came back with nothing but a few minimal retrospectives. I haven’t written anything about what’s really happening, and it’s not because things aren’t happening. I don’t think anybody cares what I have for breakfast in the morning or how long I have to wait in the post office, but I don’t want this blog, my part of it anyway, to get so detached and impersonal that it’s not even me anymore.

So I just want to be clear about this: there is one thing. The rest of life goes on, as it always has and will, but it’s all secondary to me now. It’s not that I can’t see the forest for the trees. I see it, but it just doesn’t matter so much anymore. For me, now, there is only one thing.

Unfortunately, it’s not something I can talk about widely. It falls under internal affairs, and in any case, it’s still in the research and development stage.

I don’t want February to be another January. I will write. I can’t say how well or how much; the content may lack a little conviction. I say all of this by way of explanation. It’s not an excuse.